I LOVE PAIN!!!!

Who said pain always hurts
I love the pain my belly bears
After laughing hard with my friends,

The pain my mind occupies
before every performance

The pain in my eyes
To catch a wider sight
of my loved ones!!!!!!

Yes I love the pain

Every such pain...............

DISSONANCE

Our actions express our thoughts
but is it always so or not???
Don't we pretend to be happy
Even without a thing of beauty!!!!
Or don't we wear a smile 
though fake for others sake...
Wanders here & there aimlessly
but want others to take us seriously
Yawning during a bore class,still
nodding as the brightest student!!!
When the mind buzzes"get lost" for someone
Yet the lips whisper"you're most welcome"
Isn't it the most awkward moment
lying to your mom for your best friend
Fighting unnecessary with a person
only to continue the conversation
Acting numb & dumb to hide
The mischief done by own tribe
Remember,how irritating it sounds
to appreciate even the task non prompt
A series of acts perform throughout life 
Which reflect the dissonance in mind
How expert we human are in
playing hide & seek with emotions

I wonder & laugh but unable to find a solution!!!!!! 

WHO AM I

Most difficult question I ever thought of is " WHO AM I".Strange but true everyone is nearly of the same opinion. Neither we present what we are to others, nor to ourself. As a human we always attempt to present ourself to others as having positive attributes.Shakespear's words" All the world's a stage & all the men & women merely players" explains this psychology of human very well. Are we always honest while presenting the "self", certainly not; it depends on the mediums of interaction, strenght of relation  & the goal of  communication. An individual manages the "Self " image differently in different social contexts. we frequently lie unnecessarily in order to mange our impression. But the basic issue is to learn about ourself through ourself only,What we privately think about who we are. "Introspection" the technique which acquires most of the pages of millions of self-help books, focuses on looking inward to get a better understanding of the self. Not as easy as it seems in words because we are likely to be partial while evaluating us.How we recognise ourself depends on how others treat us too.We generally avoid those aspects which creates a fear of rejection in us under the influence of the surrounding & social approval.We constantly try to prevent our self esteem as well as the social prestige even in our own company!! 
 Introspection may mislead when we start assuming & predicting about the future in place of actually going through the"self. The problem arises when we emphasize more upon the emotional factors & avoide those factors that really influnce our self judgement. For accurate judging of self,one must be honest to him/her.
                                       USE THE WEAPONS,INTROSPECT & EVALUATE,
                                       PRAISE THE LIFE & GET MORE TO CELEBRATE!!!

ANAND
Halki-Halki,
Pyari-Pyari,
Barish ki ye nanhi boond
Aate jaate
Ye kaale baadal,
Dheemi-DheemiThandi-Thandi,
Behati hui ye hawa,
Masti me jhoomte
Ye ped , Aur
Madmast kr dene wali ye bheeni kushboo
Apne me samate hue hue hain
Ek alag Sansaar,
Aisa sansaar,
Jaha hr sukh aur dukh
In boondo k saat beh jata hai,
Jaha hr kushi aur gum
In baadalo k saat chant jati hai
Aur reh jati hain sirf yaadein.......
Jo in hawayo k saat
Aadi se ant tk
Behti rhti hai,Chalti rhti hai.....
Apne me kushyeion
ki bheeni kushboo lia huea
Aur anandit krti hain
Sampoorna manav jati ko!!!!!!!!!

Life is iff puzzled,It's because of me,
I let me involve with,all the wordly things,
A question arouse ,still unanswered,
Is the life or world transient???
Either it's lovely or wry
I don't know but don't know why!!!
I didn't pass or I failed,
Or I even failed to pass....
My cueless mind often ask!!!!
Untiring efforts to conceal,
The  hidden truth behind what is revealed,
Seems useless & subtle now,
Can't be returned ,I know though,
The truth discovered in the journey,is
toughest challenge is to find 'ME' ,
If found,it's 'BE ME' ,further,
Make the world 'FEEL ME'!!!!!

Leaning her cheeks upon her hands,
Covered almost in tears,
She tried to part away from the past,
To dimnish the pain & fear,but
the melancholy note prevailing in her heart,
Was making it indecent to throb......

         Composed herself with higher efforts,

         She was driven to the days lost,when

         the sun rises with her laughter,

         Moon appears to entertain her,

         Air carried her lofty Ideas,when

         All the mightiness lied in her thoughts!!!!!!!

But all gone in a blink of eye,

Leaving an unfilled question of why.......

Even her pleasent smile is exiled,

The 'Glorious Self ' of her's is pushed aside.....

         She shall be freed from bondage of actions,

         And purified with penance of wisdom,

         To take the Soul at unseen heights,and

          to satisfy the 'Self' with eternal bliss...............